In early November of 2018, Kristine A, Happy Hubby and I wrote separate articles discussing the supposed “Middle Way” in Mormonism. I found myself thinking about these posts after reading RJH’s recent post about the supposed “Day the blogs died.”

As someone who has not gone to church in a long time (and whose blogging has also dwindled), I could totally understand if someone proposed me as proof of RJH’s thesis. Yet, even in 2018, I took ownership and pride of my status as an outsider, and so I do the same today.

See, I think many outsiders — but especially thoughtful exmormons — wonder about one thing in particular regarding non-traditionalist Mormons. I would propose that it’s easier for exmormons and traditionally believing Mormons to see eye to eye — they both accept Mormonism as the same basic thing, but one side agrees with it and the other side does not.

The mystery is in non-traditionalist Mormons who seem not to even agree with the premises. So, I think many thoughtful exmormons wonder how some non-traditionalist Mormons stay in the long-term. While certainly, it seems that whatever you want to call it — new order Mormonism, Middle Way Mormonism, liberal Mormonism, progressive Mormonism, the “inside of the edge” (to take Chris Kimball’s survivalist subversion of the more typical “edge of inside”) — often ends up being merely a waystation on the way out of the church. (I personally recall writing a statement like “the entropic endstate of middle way Mormonism is disaffection” but I cannot for the life of me find this anywhere.) This is not surprising. After all, many exmormons “tried to make it work” so seeing people leave after trying alternative ways is not unusual.

However, we still observe that some people seem to be able to last a lot longer than others. (I do understand how convoluted this conversation could become…if someone deconverts on their deathbed after a lifetime of activity and belief, is that just the entropic endstate effect happening? But I also don’t have a timeline for how long is long enough to “stay” to avoid the accusation that every liberal believer eventually leaves.)

Back in 2018, I wrote that what seemed to me to be the distinguishing factors were a spiritual independence combined with a calling to continue striving with the constellations of Mormonism. Today, I think these factors are more relevant than ever, but for today, I focus on spiritual independence. In my mind, I thought that if one’s staying was for extrinsic factors (maintaining family relationships) or out of a mission to effect change in the church, then they would be more likely to burn out based on disappointing responses from others. A sense of spiritual independence, on the other hand, provided a source of renewable energy regardless of what the institution or fellow ward members or family aid or did.

(Again, as an outsider, I don’t have this spiritual independence, and I can’t help you get it. I can only comment on what I observe.)

I don’t know what the right terms are or should be to distinguish those who stay longer from those don’t. I don’t really like “middle way” or “liberal” that much in general, and obviously, the problem is that these terms are not predictive. Part of me suspects that, much like the Calvinist elect and reprobates, or this blog’s namesake wheat and tares, it probably is impossible to sort people out until all is said and done. (And I do not mean to imply the judgment implied by these these analogies — I don’t think nonbelievers or liberal believers or whatever are “tares”…or maybe even if they are, I don’t share the same moral judgment of tares or reprobates as is probably implied by a traditional viewpoint.)

What strikes me with RJH’s writing about the former vibrancy of the Bloggernacle and its bloggers is that it doesn’t appear to engage with the topic of spiritual independence as I wrote about it at all. To the contrary, the vibrancy is based on almost diametrically opposed foundations that, when cracked, would explain why the blogs died.

Rather than a vision grounded in spiritual independence, the vision that RJH paints of the “reasonably liberal”, “Hinckleyian progressivis[t]” Bloggernacle types was a belief or hope that the institution secretly, deep down, supported their way of thinking and believing, or at least were compatible with it. And so:

We knew that the church was a conservative institution but there was also a small but not insignificant Hinckleyian progressivism afoot. These were the years of the Joseph Smith Papers and the “I am a Mormon” campaign. We believed we were nudging things along. There was realism but also hope. And then November 5, 2015 happened. Turns out, it was all a mirage. Those of us opposed did not simply disagree with the policy, we were shocked by it. We had thought there was an inevitable inching towards LGBTQ+ inclusion but we saw it reversed in an instance. Prop 8 was not an aberration, it was the norm. We knew then that no matter what we had written, no matter how passionate we had argued for a faithful Mormonism on the left, we had lost and would always lose in a church that was never ours in the first place. And so Mormon blogging died, at least for those of us who struggled to recover from the PoX.

While recognizing the inadequacy of language, I would actually mark a distinction between “liberal” Mormonism as something that trusts in on relies upon institutional support (which I would for the sake of this post use to describe the now “dead” Bloggernacle type of Mormonism) from the Middle Way Mormonism that persists, which, as I wrote about in 2018, instead relies upon independence as a core value.

…I wonder if this isn’t relevant anywhere else in our lives. Where else are we seeing institutions pushed to their breaking point, or subverted in ways that are, to reuse a term, shocking? And can relying on institutionalism bears us through, or is it possible to discover a wellspring of independence while still feeling called to the constellation around a dream that is dimming through decay?