“Good morning, missionaries. This is Jake. My condolences on the passing of President Nelson. I thought of you because I remember President Howard W. Hunter passing away while I was a missionary. Have a peaceful Sunday and a good stake conference.”

—Text message I sent to the sister missionaries in my local Michigan ward, approximately 90 minutes before a shooter attacked Latter-day Saints in Grand Blanc, Michigan

The Grand Blanc LDS Chapel Attack

What follows is not a journalistic account of this morning’s attack, but personal observations. I learned of the attack while watching a neighboring Michigan stake conference via Zoom, south of where the attack occurred.

The LDS chapel in Grand Blanc, Michigan after an attack; Image from The Associated Press

For reporting, I refer you to the mainstream professional news outlet of your choice. I’ve been following developments on CNN here. I also recommend the Associated Press coverage, from which I pulled the aerial image above. In a nutshell:

At approximately 11 a.m., an attacker drove their vehicle into the Grand Blanc Stake Center. In addition to starting the building on fire, he shot members before being shot and killed by law enforcement. Being a church congregation, the victims of course included both children and the elderly. As of this writing, there have been both injuries and fatalities. Cell phone footage and aerial imagery confirm the chapel was badly damaged.

You can read an official statement here from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

My Stake President gets Weepy at the Pulpit

When stake conference in Ann Arbor, Michigan began streaming this morning, I noticed with some admitted sarcasm how tearful my stake president seemed. Like… Henry B. Eyring weepy. And I felt he would have been this weepy even if President Russell M. Nelson hadn’t passed away the night before. Readers, please bear with me. I promise that detail will be relevant.

I had texted the sister missionaries about 9:30 a.m. Eastern. A few minutes later, they texted me back a heartfelt reply. I assume they were already at our stake center in Ann Arbor. That’s about an hour south of Grand Blanc. The Sisters wished me a peaceful Sunday. It felt like a warm, sincere interaction, which doesn’t always happen with me and missionaries. I am a longtime inactive member.

Early in the session, I posted a semi-humorous Instagram story of me drinking coffee as I watched stake conference in my apartment. I added a sincere caption of condolence, @mentioning President Nelson’s official Instagram account.

Then, I noticed my stake president’s weepiness. He announced the first half-hour or so of the service and took his seat. I did not see him on camera in any significant way for another hour.

It was your basic stake conference general session. Some youth and recent convert speakers. A couple charismatic ward-level leaders spoke, with the appropriate Latter-day weepiness so common from the pulpit. Then came a regional-level speaker with gravitas: the mission president. Our stake conference also included several lovely musical selections, including a beautiful harp performance. Harp music is always beautiful, isn’t it?

Then the stake president rose to give the closing remarks. As I expected, he arrived at the microphone already weepy. I may have rolled my eyes.

Learning of the Grand Blanc LDS Chapel Attack

Then he made the announcement. The stake center in Grand Blanc, Michigan had just been attacked. In addition to a gun, he said the shooter also used “incendiaries.”  Behind the stake president, I saw choir members react with pained composure, including one singer whose jaw dropped wide open.

Calmly, the stake president said our chapel in Ann Arbor had been locked down, with doors being monitored. Then he proceeded with what must have been a mixture of prepared and impromptu remarks. He spoke of light and darkness. He was calm and dignified, a good leader.

A young sister, high school or college-aged, had been asked to give the closing prayer. She faltered before starting, even looking over at the presiding high priest for help. She seemed to doubt she could make it through giving a prayer. It may have taken her a minute to collect herself. I literally spoke to my laptop screen, “Somebody stand up and put their arm around her.” No one did, but I could see that leaders on the stand were trying to reassure her. She proceeded with the benediction. I can only witness that her words felt reverent, appropriate, and helpful. She was brave.

Other than the stake president’s horrifying announcement, there was no interruption in our stake’s session. We began and ended on time, and all about an hour south of the Grand Blanc attack.

At noon, I shifted from Zoom to YouTube to watch Beyond the Walls, an online Community of Christ service. I toggled back and forth between that service and CNN updates. On the Facebook livestream of Beyond the Walls, both a chat moderator I know and another member noted the tragedy unfolding in Michigan. Expressions of condolences for the attack, as well as for President Nelson, were also mentioned by fellow Restoration participants. We can all be compassionate if we choose to be.

A Moment for President Nelson and Weepiness

I had started the day reading NPR’s coverage of President Nelson’s passing. He is the one Church president I’ve met and shaken hands with, and politics notwithstanding, I liked him a great deal. I learned about his death from a friend’s Facebook post I saw right after waking up. I found NPR’s coverage of President Nelson’s death balanced and helpful. They included quotes from several sources, including Wheat & Tares favorites Professor Benjamin Park and Religion News writer Jana Riess. After all, that should have been the big Mormon story of the day.

Early in stake conference, I felt myself wanting to poke fun at my stake president for being weepy. A couple of hours later, I found myself pacing around my apartment growing tearful in precisely the same way, and to the same degree. This is all so sad.

A Polite Request and Questions for Discussion

It’s impossible for me to share details of the attack without readers feeling tempted to speculate. I too feel tempted to speculate and lash out. At times like these, we risk being part of the unhelpful noise that makes up so much of social media. That said, our comments section is open. Please use restraint and avoid speculation that centers on laying blame.

How did you learn about the attack on the LDS chapel in Grand Blanc?

What response would you like to see from Church leaders, especially with General Conference a week away?

What resources do you find helpful in processing shock and grief?