Introit

I love the gray cat,
but then the orange
cat needs a home

The gray cat’s dander is up.
He lurks as lions do,
between pride and prey,
wanting to feed

The orange cat paces far off,
longing for a new, dry home,
even as the snowflakes fall
overriding his fur’s warmth

I, human, feel myself losing
control—
inheritor of orange,
mistress of gray,
trying to keep fire,
trying to keep ice,
afeared of losing both

So is born a trinity,
angry souls encircling
each other

Kyrie

Lord, have mercy,
Eternal Friend, have mercy,
Lord, have mercy

Sanctus

Imperfectly, I’ve incorporated daily mindfulness meditation into my life. Some of this comes in secular form, via short tutorials hosted by a mental health care website. Some of it is New Agey. I’ve tried staring at live-cam footage of erupting volcanoes while performing slow, controlled breathing. Some of it is religious, alternating Eastern guru content with Jesuit Christian approaches. I’d like to try transcendental meditation but, as it turns out, that is a pay-to-play closed priesthood. TM teachers will deny this, which only makes them guilty of marketing.

The journey remains varied; my mind remains precocious and rowdy. This is the work of personal wellbeing, as exemplified by my experience with the following Jesuit guided meditation:

The revelation which follows has been edited and polished, to render my mind’s output as a message from the Savior. It occurred near the end of watching the above Ignatian meditation video, arriving via thought experiment. There was, from my point of view, no supernatural event. Nevertheless, the experience felt fulfilling, helping to calm my mind’s recurring storm.

The Revelation

Thus saith your Lord and Eternal Friend, I see your anger. I see the plotting in your upper brain driven on by the urging of your lower brain—like cold and warm fronts colliding in the Plains. I cannot heal you of what you are innately. The wind and waves do not obey your will, because they are your will. Dear Seeker, all I may do is teach you how to steer your vessel and where to fish. Behold, this is wisdom, for the addict cannot cast out the self from himself. Remember the wisdom of sages. You are sufficient. Even so, amen.


Okay, good readers. What do you think of the above “revelation”? Does it qualify? Why or why not? How does revelation operate in your experience?